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sinking

Anxiety is such a cocksucker. Waves of it today. So I stuck two fingers up at adulthood and played video games for 7 hours. There’s something so deliciously naughty about being a 31 year old woman deliberately ignoring that pile … Continue reading

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love

A friend sent me this song today. Fuck, man. Listening to this feels like cutting your chest open and rubbing your bleeding, blood pumping, raw heart against unpolished wood.   I think maybe it’s despair that I’m feeling. I’ve been … Continue reading

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open windows, closed drapes

There is a dead bumblebee on the outside windowsill. Belly up, legs clutching nothing, peaceful look on its face. Yes, the latter may well be an exaggeration. Let’s just say it looks intact. I’ve got wasps living in the wall … Continue reading

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rose hips and dragonflies

… … . Okay, here goes. … I am a writer. I am a journalist. The former I have always been. The latter I have decided to become. I’ve said it. I’ve claimed both words. Now they are mine. I … Continue reading

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might as well face it, you’re addicted…

Stitch, stitch, stitch, stitch, type, type, type, type. I’m sorry for the Robert Palmer reference. It was necessary, I’m afraid. … When I was a kid, I liked to eat. I’ve never been a picky eater, ever. Yeah, I wasn’t … Continue reading

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here are some things we cannot talk about

Loneliness is a cold, black stone lodged inside me, behind my ribs, gnawing, gnawing, hollowing out my bones, putting dust in my mouth. Quiz Kid Donnie Smith says, ‘My name is Donnie Smith and I have lots of love to … Continue reading

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bone machine

… It’s not because I’m a pig that I haven’t changed my bed sheets in two months. Please believe me; I want to change my bed sheets. But I am genuinely scared that I’ll strip my pillows and duvet and … Continue reading

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