Monthly Archives: May 2017

metaphors and 5 AM thoughts (no decisions)

… The thing I hate the very most about being where I am in life right now is that it forces me to soul search, take myself seriously and dwell on every aspect of my thoughts and feelings. I have … Continue reading

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comforting sounds

… I stripped my bed of the old bed sheets. … I can finally feel the turn. The ship is so huge you can’t feel it turning but it is. It is turning. The oar is being steered, it is. … Continue reading

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here are some things we cannot talk about

Loneliness is a cold, black stone lodged inside me, behind my ribs, gnawing, gnawing, hollowing out my bones, putting dust in my mouth. Quiz Kid Donnie Smith says, ‘My name is Donnie Smith and I have lots of love to … Continue reading

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bone machine

… It’s not because I’m a pig that I haven’t changed my bed sheets in two months. Please believe me; I want to change my bed sheets. But I am genuinely scared that I’ll strip my pillows and duvet and … Continue reading

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ugh

It’s Mental Health Awareness Week. How appropriate. Yesterday, I got up, had coffee, answered a fairly important email from my work’s HR rep and bought a plane ticket home for the neat sum of £30. I did this in the space … Continue reading

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white peony

I guess what it boils down to is that I am really fucking angry. My god, I’m just so fucking ANGRY! Putting words to that anger is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do because it’s all of it. … Continue reading

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I’ve spent most of today trying to make sense of the last few days in written form. I’ve written hundreds of words and then deleted them all again, multiple times. It’s all wrong, I can’t get anything across properly. And … Continue reading

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